EMBARRASSED BY FRIEND

Everybody has embarrassing moments.  For whatever reason that caused you embarrassed, maybe by chance, unavoidable circumstances, or by someone else deed, you will never like it.  But embarrassment is even more painful, unbelievable and unacceptable when it is caused by a friend.  Because for all people in this world, of all people you know, friend is one of the last persons you can think can able to make you humiliate.  And you would ask yourself why him or her.  That is painful because that would lead to the end.

When we thought we found a friend, we really do effort to make it grow.  We do our best to keep the good, the true and the right one – lucky to get two or more.  In every friendship, you want it to be the best.  You want to have best friend for life that will understand your personality, accept your shortcomings and faults, feel your sufferings and undergoing, support your dreams, helps you to succeed and applauses to your achievements.  We want someone who will tell our mistakes, who gives advices and wants us to succeed.  These are the best part of friendship.  And when you found the person you thought your best friend, you tried so hard and give all the best you can to keep that friend with you.  Because these make the sense that no one in this world is alone.

That is why it is hurt feeling when all the while you treated the person as friend and for all you know it was all friendship but actually no.  When during your days together, you do what your friend wants and what makes happy, every favours that told to do so and it is fine and there is no question about it.  In friendship there si no counting who demands most, who takes and gives more, who is losing or gets the less.  That what makes friendship, you do these while you are together.  Then when time comes you need to set apart, this will be the acid test to the friendship.  True, you will know the true friend when it is behind your back, out of your sight and none on your side.

While you are here and the friend you thought is on the other distant place with the new found friends laughing about you will really feel sorrow, betrayed and dumped.  After you did your share to make the friendship grown, memorable and strong, after all the efforts to save the friendship, after all those times you thought you are okay but you will realize in reality no it is not really that okay, and despite you tried your best yet the friend you thought can put you in a funny situation that made you feel embarrassed, that is the wake up call.  Until you realize and have to admit there is no friendship at all, it is all friendly user, that you are just good while you are there, while it lasts.  And you will flash back the sacrifices you made, somehow you will feel regret but you don’t need to regret for such kind of people.

Well maybe, the things you can only think of is that maybe your best is not enough, maybe it is not really meant to be, maybe that friend is not worthy, maybe there are others deserving for you friendship or maybe you just gave all yourself that nothing is left for you.  You may have faults, shortcomings and guilt.  But amidst of this laughter involving the person you considered a friend, you will not want to be defended anymore,  The least you want is that, the person you considered a friend not to take part on that laughter – then it’ll be acceptable for you.  Friendship is always two-way give and take relationship though unconditional.  You two should work for it without considering how it will benefit you.  Both have to give, to sacrifice and to work to call it true unconditional friendship.