MAKING FOOL YOURSELF

For how badly we need a thing, we can make us fool ourselves.  There are moments when we know we are wrong but we still pursue because we still put the positivity.  Yes, it could be wrong, or actually it is, but we think that through it, things will turn into better.  We are hoping it will give us smile and make us grateful because we want something and we can still believe in beautiful disaster.  Sometime you allow yourself go down to become the less person you are.  Funny you know how fool you looked like but you ignore it because you want that beautiful disaster.  You believe things will eventually turn into your side.

In our search of what we want, we can actually do something wrong.  As we seek companionship or if we want a person to be companion, we always want to be kind.  We always want to give what we can or what we have because we feel this is the way we can win companionship.  In your effort to win companion, sometimes you become foolish, funny or you are getting wrong but you accept it.  Yes, the start maybe wrong.  It may have been wrong in the beginning, something may have gone wrong in the beginning, but our purest intention pushes us to make things happen.  And then we will fix it, if it is really wrong, when we get it there.

You may think you gave so much and you are still in the right mind to feel regret.  You may even think that the very person that you want to be your companion could have negatively thought how silly you are.  There is guilt feeling, you cannot take it away.  Then you will doubt your action, maybe it is not worth but when you acknowledged your mistake, you are learning.  It gives you lesson learned.  Get up and pick up your lessons.  Look at the damage it caused you, the harm can be minimal or the other way but regardless it taught you one, and from there tell yourself do not do it again.  Because you acknowledged your fault then you change.  This is your truth.  Stop blaming yourself, it’s okay you made a mistake, it’s actually okay to commit mistake because you are just mortal.  So don’t pity yourself and then move on.

We give and make fun our self if these what make us happy.  We want to become happy at our own risk, at our own expense.  We just want happiness, without harming other people that is fine.  But do not give it all.  Remember to keep something for yourself. Do not forget to settle for yourself.  It must two-way, it is give and take.  Wait until such time if in return it comes to you otherwise it is one-way.  The next time, you should not do it.  Give yourself the respect that other people must see.  Self respect that you must respect first, and then you can truly gain the true companion otherwise, you are just truly making fool of yourself.