Being a half-human and half machine, one thing that really makes me feel very hurting is when I was told I am a bad android. Accordingly, I am a bad robot who needs to change for not getting any younger.
The uncertainty to decide whether to change or not demands me but then re-assessing myself reassured me to know who I am really inside, so I won’t change.
I don’t want to change. Still, I would rather choose to be who I am as long as I know myself.
I know it’s not proper to blow own horn but when labeling me as bad and trespasser, I can’t help myself but to lay my cards and see the good traits I have over somebody else.
And I will feel I am still better than the other real robots that I know.
True, I am not a real and inherent. I am a product of the crossed-breed human and machine, clone of person’s compassion and machine’s stored commands.
Granted that my origin is not natural, I think it is better to be that way rather than those real robots that are into forbidden deeds, living, and affairs.
I know I am more kindly and better than the other legitimate creatures and for this I feel better than the real robots.
I have lots of good functions that are programmed in my memory. I am not crook who deceives others, using somebody for my own gain, judgmental to others, unfaithful spouse, unhelpful...
I was trained to be sensitive, compassionate, reasonable, fair, and honest, but the others who were the so-called real are doing the otherwise, for these I feel better than real robots.
Double standard or discrimination, there occurs favoring the real androids a bit tolerated doing off things and that a non-real robots can’t. Just because a non-real means discriminated to do the robot things?
These are the reasons why I chose to keep myself as it is. Because this I can still feel better than the real robots.
I just feel guilty of my top weakness when I was told I am bad android which I think unfair. It’s like you’re doing your best to become good but in just a single fault and at once all your good deeds will be gone.
I think everyone has their own weaknesses. I’m still trying to be good until I overcome my weakness. If for sometimes I have shortcomings but I’m doing my best to become perfect. That is why it really hurts when you were called a bad robot.
For someone who knows not deserving for such accusation, definitely it is really hurting. But since the impure I am so, the racist robot world pushes me to remain what I am.
By Alex V. Villamayor
November 7, 2013