VLOG #2: FOG

Today I wanna show you the weather condition here.  It's winter today, And it is not not just another winder because today, we have fog.  So let see it.

Usually comes during winter, between December and February.  When fog comes, expect a sudden change in the temperature.  It's 17 degrees today and it is getting colder.

This is how fog looks like.  It's like a thick clouds, or a smoke just before you.  I'm pretty sure, it is not okay with some (wind sound) because it's difficult to identify the objects, or a person, 25 meters away from you.  Specially to those who are driving, it's unsafe.  It can be zero visibility.  

It's a foggy morning here.  Look at above, see how thick it is.

So, there you go.  Now you know how it looks like.  For some reason I like fog.  It makes me feel cool and easy.  Hope you like it.  So see you on my next vlog.

SAVING SOMEONE

There is some point in our life we want to become the guardian angel of a person who are close to us.  We are trying to be the hero or to play fairy godmother (or godfather) because we care to that person.  We choose to be because we want him.

Sometimes we know we are not entitled to play the guardian angel because we know we are not perfect to be angel or worth to be.  Who are we to play pure and clean?  We’re sinners so what are our rights to say wisdom, advice, proverbs.  Who are we to say what is good and bad if we commit sins from time to time.  And yet, we tend to make ourselves the one to protect the person.

Sometimes we are not deserved to be the hero because we know we are weak, we have flaws and we do not know the right and wrong.  But we tend to be hero because this is the only way we can save someone.  Because we feel we’re responsible to do this, like mother or father to their children.

And so it is depressing to discover when that person lost on his track, when we failed to make him good or better, when we cannot give what will make him complete or when we cannot save him from sure danger, mistakes and negativity.  When saving someone is failure, the outcome is really hurtful and difficult to accept.

When the person disobeyed us, we feel the real pain like a knife that cuts our heart.  We are down, we feel so deeply down. But then we will still want to do the second try or use the plan-B because you don’t want someone close to you settle for less.  As the guardian angel, or a hero, or a fairy godmother or godfather, you are responsible for that person.

Sometimes you need to confront the person, and you argue, and maybe you harm each other physically or emotionally, but you wonder why it still so difficult to walkout.  Because you don’t want him to go wrong.  You want him to save from wrong because it really matters to you.

It really needs someone to say wrong.  We do not know our mistakes, we do not know that we are doing wrong.  A person doesn’t see his own dirt so someone who is around him should say the dirt.  And who else is the person who can see your dirt, who can say you are wrong?  It is but you who want to be the guardian angel, or the hero, or that fairy godmother who always want but the best. It doesn't matter if you yourself is sinful, being sinful doesn't say you can not help anyway, instead this could be the way to turn back from your mistakes.

We care because we love.  We love because we want.  Happiness comes when we serve the people we want, when we can give them the best they want.  Loving someone could cost high or lunatic, you can do more than you thought you cannot do.  Loving someone could mean you have to humble yourself just to reach out the person.  Saving someone could risky but we will do.  Because we care the person, we love the person and that’s what all matter.

(thoughts from last night argument)