Right
now I am in a point where my interest in social fun is fading. Not sure if it is seclusion but I am certain
that I am more interested in family and personal fun. It is just that I am no longer interested in
much pleasure, lots of fun, entertainment and trivial worldliness. I feel I
don’t need superfluous fun, fulsomeness habits and materialistic merriments for
they are just mere redundancies. I have
indulged myself enough. And I think I
have to lose some spree, and instead I need to do something different but
relevant.
It’s
about time for me to disown some worldly things so I will give up old same
usual mundane things that I have did for the past several years in my life. In a straightforward statement, I am losing
interest in worldliness. Celebration and
thanksgiving thru merriment like parties of foods, drinks, music, and big
occasions are things that I want to drop.
Keep the experiences in memories, choose the important and leave it up
the rest. All these worldliness, I will
turn my back with some of them and instead will go for family and personal
goals. I think I need to let them go and
I don’t feel my life today is uninteresting or boring in other word while in
fact I feel now the better peace of mind.
It
comes to a point where I don’t like much fun and I’m not enjoying them. I believe there’s nothing wrong with this. I
think I’m fine with what I am going through.
It’s a matter of priority, if I prefer other things over the things that
I have accustomed. People change, if it is here where I’ll be happy and I think
it’s not for the worse, then it is certainly not sadness at all as what other
people may think. Nevertheless,
rejecting social fun is not relevant to me. I am not bother about this because
there is in me that I feel my presence is not necessary anyway and my company
is not important at all. Being a quite
person the nature I am, this will not be difficult for me. If you know the feeling of “you are
interrelating but seem you do not exist”, this is where I am coming from. People are normally searching for their place
and I think I found myself in simplicity, serenity, and singleness, I guess
this is it.
There
is nothing religious faith and influence, let say sanctification with this
important and big change in my life. Neither
a bad mood nor just had a bad day because both are nothing. It is simply a personal choice and self
decision in making me good, kind and better.
For I believe life must be simple, I want to make it simpler and
easy. Repugnance and aversion to
happiness is what I want to put into practice.
The craze in lavish, materialistic, temporal, and earthen circumstances
is only a matter of excessiveness. I
don’t want it and I am not enjoying it now.
At the end of the day, we are all looking for our happiness and I am
contented in my feelings today.
Back
in my mid-20, I dreamed myself as an old man in an unknown place where I’ve
never been. Few years back, I said that
I would like to settle in a quiet, serene and so nature place as my retiring
home. When I set my feet in Palawan for
the first time and recently in Batanes, this refreshed my dream anew. These places are far from noise of modern
city, so natural, simple, pure and no calls of fun modern but simple fun. Under the impression of being amazed, I want
to live in a rural place that is so closed to nature and I think that dream is
happening now starting with my strong attachment in simplicity.
By Alex V.
Villamayor
November 4, 2014
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